Voices in my head...

Can you believe it? I am hearing voices. They are happy at times and they are sad the other. When they are happy they make me look at people around me in a joyous perspective. They show me how much in love that one couple in the corner is. Then sometimes those voices make everything melancholic. Like sadness creeping through veins of New York subway. Whatever is my mood, my voices give a background score to everything that is happening around me.or is it the otherway round? Are my voices defining my mood? funny thing is, it's only me who is hearing these voices. No... I am not mocking my patients. I really do hear voices in my head these days. Because on my way home, I am listening to my iPod!

being ME.

I just realized that it must so difficult being someone else...like...say..you? Its so much easy and peaceful to be just me. I am so glad, I am me.

the race is long ....

When I was trying frantically to get into residency I used to meet a lot of people like me, at interviews, in gray hound, at Airports…. who were exactly in my position, some of them were my direct rivals, because they were fighting for the same position I was fighting for, just as helpless and just as desperate. Each of them had a very touching story to tell, how they came to America and how they were sustaining. And then slowly I realized that it was not about me achieving something, it was about each of those person achieving his own height. We just think about ourselves and one must, but when you think of others you realize that you are running alone thinking that u are competing against someone, although there are people running along side you but it is not a race with them, at each turn a few people join in the race and few people take a detour and the race continues or so do we think.

now what?

I did it, now what?
It’s been more than 7 months and I am still wondering what shall I post?
What if no one reads?
Worse still... What if someone actually reads?

oh-fish

i did it!